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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 06:36:19 GMT

Damn, it's been a long time!

6 months, I do believe.

Perhaps I'll recap everything for you!

I left off in February, so I'll start in...

March - Got my new car, a Chevy Cavolier.

April - Sucked. Very very very much. The only good thing about it was that I finally got ungrounded after two months of "prison." Then, I lost my very good friend, Justin, in a car crash on the 15th. He was 18 years old. Skipped most of that week of school, grades fell, etc., It was just an all around bad time in my life. Worked my ass off for the rest of the month trying to get my grades back up.

May - Still missing Justin, but getting better. Finally got most of my grades up, and finished the rest of the school year.

June - Summer time! Parties, fun, etc.

July - Parties, fun, etc., again. Folk Festival was pretty fun, spent time with my friends and such, didn't get into toooo much trouble, haha. Met a few new friends, too!

August - Only half over, but going alright so far. Been hanging out with friends, both old and new, and having fun.

So, this summer has been pretty good, but nothing compared to last summer! Last summer held a lot of firsts for me, and so did this summer, but no matter what, nothing will ever compare to the times and memories I have shared with Justin and everyone else last summer. I had the time of my life and I'll never forget it. Anyways, school starts in two weeks. Great. Well, maybe I'll update again in a few months when I'm up late, no one is online, and I'm bored again.

R.I.P. Justin.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 21:36:44 GMT

Hello all! LONG time no update, huh? Since October, many things have happened. Let's try to recap...

November

Got my liscense, woo hoo. Had a birthday. And a few parties. Fun times.

December

Trisha's party. Good times, good times. Xmas, not so much. But I got some pretty cool stuff, so I can't complain too much. New Year's Eve, fun times also.

January

Not so fun. Totaled my car, fucked up my leg for a while, but the bruise was kinda pretty. Purply Greenish Blue. A few parties, fun times, too. Then I got grounded. Not so fun. Found out about a Cradle of Filth concert that Jeremy and I wanted to go to. Too bad it was on a Wednesday or something, so we couldn't go. I 'ruined Jeremy's day' by telling him that. Oh well, I think he got over it.

February

Fucked my knee up. (Sprained it) Not so fun, but got some good drugs for it. Lol. Went to Sweethearts' Dance. Not as bad as I thought it'd be.

Drama's starting up again, so that's always good. I get to be a violent ghost, yay. Everything else seems to be going pretty well so far. Still recovering from my latest injury (knee), so that's kinda not so fun.

Perhaps I shall update in another four months....?

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 02:29:54 GMT

Ok. Why is no one on here anymore? This will be my last update until people start getting on here again.

Last week - Not too much happening. School and Drama and such.

Friday - Last regular football game. We made it to playoffs!

Saturday Night - Went to Jeremy's Halloween party thingy. Pretty fun.

Sunday - Taylar came over. Then went to the wonderful QC and had lots of fun.

Monday - Still in QC having fun. Came home and slept.

This weekend I should be going to QC again. Yay.

April = Roadtrip!! Woo!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 17:19:46 GMT

Homecoming.

Not too bad, I had some fun. No after party though. Grr! Oh well, there's always next weekend..

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

[Chorus:]
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

[chorus]

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

[chorus]

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 16:47:49 GMT

Well, Well, Well.

Spent Friday and Saturday nights in the QC. Woo! Fun times, fun time.

You keep your distance
I can't deny you
I got the feeling
Can't satisfy you
I got your picture on the wall
I got the picture long gone
You keep your wishes
I'll keep my feelings
There goes along the one
That kept me breathing
I'm waiting for you
I know you're leaving
I still adore you
You never need me

Hold on
I've found another way to let you go
Away
Hold on
You've found another way to bleed my soul
Away

The things you told me
To hear you speak
I'm burning slowly
I'm growing weak
You bring me closer to yesterday
Yesterday's a million miles away
Why can't you hear me?
Why can't I see you?
And I don't understand
What keeps me breathing
I'm waiting for you
I know you're leaving
I'll still adore you
You'll never need me

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 19:38:43 GMT

Went to QC again last night. LOTS of fun!!

Other than that, not much happening. Planning on going back to QC next weekend. Yay.

Save all your prayers
I think we lost today
There's no morning after
And no one's around to blame

I'm not afraid to bleed
But I won't do it for you
We'll start among hypocrites
The melody of our time

[Chorus:]
So say goodbye to the world
We are the dead can't walk the earth
Scream your lungs out
Wait for laughter
You don't have to wait forever
It's the next disaster!

What decides when you've lost the war
When the first man falls?
Or when they erase it all?

We're too numb to feel
The downfall starts here
Hold your breath and swim
Swallowed my life's tear

In times of make believe
No one really seems to care
Maybe I should care less
'Cause I will die too

[Chorus]

What will it take for us to realize
The more we provoke
Winter will come twice

Save all your prayers
I think we lost today
There's no morning after
And no one's around to blame

[Chorus 2x]

Yay, I'm in the Crew!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 21:33:45 GMT

"Kyle, what time is it?"

"IT'S DOOBIE TIME!! WOO!"

Went to the wonderous QC last night. Yay. I had fun, a LOT of fun, too much fun.(If there's such a thing...) I'm so tired right now, it's crazy. I haven't really slept at all, and it sucks.

Pizza is yummy.

Yep.

I'm in a Scary Kids mood,..

Every single wish came true
I will lie in front of you
I hope you're living your selfish fairytale
Well, it's all down hill from here

You're lying through your teeth, it doesn't seem to be that bad
'Til a good friends corpse is lying on the floor.
I can't seem to get by when all I'm living on is fake smiles.

I live my life in the shadows of the things I try to hide.

This path is like a loaded gun
But what's said is done
You don't have to say a word

I'll live with the loneliness.
But I'll never forget
I was never your best bet.
Better than Better than me of course.
You're always right.
You're always on the ball
Better than Better than everything
I've done for you
Cause now you can finally sleep.
Can you smile too?

They're right this time
I wont pretend to smile
Because inside
I'm black and
I am hollow

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 23:00:56 GMT

So.

I'm bored. Stressed over nothing. Eager to party. Ready to get away from here. Anywhere but here.

Garrrrr!

3 am, I’m drunk again,
My head is standing underneath my puke,
So make it stop, I’m getting off.
Make it stop, I’m getting off.
Sedatives and dizzy spells
And feeling like a salad in my puke,
So make it stop, I’m getting off.
Make it stop I’m getting off.

Well, slipped into a coma once again.
Where’s my organ donor? 
Lend a hand.

So when you think you’re all alone,
No one’s left to come around,
Drop like flies and empathize,
Cause I know that I will someday,
And I know that I will suffocate,
Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate.

One night stands and cheap regrets,
I take another drag off of my cigarette,
So stop, I’m getting off.
Make it stop, I’m getting off.
One last stop for one track mind,
Just give me shelter, give me give me something.
Make it stop, I’m getting off.
Make it stop, I’m getting off.

Well, slipped into a coma once again.
Where’s my organ donor? 
Lend a hand.

So when you think you’re all alone,
No one’s left to come around,
Drop like flies and empathize,
Cause I know that I will someday,
And I know that I will suffocate,
Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate.

"You're fun to get fucked up with."

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 21:16:21 GMT

^ Direct quote from a friend in QC at about 3 a.m. Sunday morning.

Fair was fun, exciting, entertaining.

Partied Friday and Saturday night in the good ol' QC. Woot.

A good night, the best in a long time
A new friend turned me on to an old favorite
Nothing better than a dealer who's high
Be high, convince them to buy

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And I do it a lot

Seems so sick to the hypocrite norm
Running their boring drills
But we are an elite race of our own
The stoners, junkies, and freaks

Are you happy? I am, man.
Content and fully aware
Money, status, nothing to me
'Cause your life is empty and bare

You can't understand a user's mind
But try, with your books and degrees
If you let yourself go and opened your mind
I'll bet you'd be doing like me
And it ain't so bad

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 22:30:28 GMT

Fair tomorrow. Yay.

Found some stuff out. Grr!

To "You":::

Here I am, a poster board pinup for you to hate,
Someone who once cared. Now nothing is holding me back.
I am no more an image of what you thought I should be,
The choice you've made and forced upon me.
So go on and hate me if you must, but honestly I don't give a fuck.
With my friends by my side I can get through anything,
With you on my side we can destroy everything.
For those who continue to compare to this false idea,
What do you expect from me?
Sing a lullaby scream you to sleep? I'm fucking sick of it being your way.
You don't love me, you love the person you think I am
A poster board pinup for you to love.
You don't hate me, you love the person you think I am
A poster board pinup for you to hate.
What you may see on the outside might not hold true to your heart, so here I am.
The real deal take it or not, like I've said before I don't give a fuck.